Love .. Sex.. Recovery

I am finding that love is the greatest thing on earth. Sex without love is just not enough anymore. Having that feeling of truely being head over heels in love has changed me forever,its like someone turned on some button inside me that feels and believes in a new kind of love. I have always approached every relationship in a buiseness like manor and up until now it has always worked. Now its like ive finally matured in my feelings, the true deapth of my heart and soul. unfortunatly the one who awakened this new venture in me is not my true love, but he taught me things about myself no one else could, how to open my heart and recieve love. He was a complete ass in the end but he had no choice, he too was in love. He chose the safe girl, the one who he would never have any worries with. she would be quite and not draw attention to herself. His insecuritys were satisfied with her.  Wtih me it was a different story, i was hot! Fun,smart and besutiful, and everyone knew it. It scared the hell out if him to fall in love with me , he was falling so fast and he just couldnt let go of the past and move forward and make a future with me.  I saw the real nim even when he tried his best to conceal it.  He was so afraid to possibly lose my love either by me leaving him or someone else stealing me away that he left first. He hurt me before i could hurt him, and went back to what was safe. But im a smart girl so i wasnt hurt by his unkind words for long, you see i know he loves me, id say even more than he loves her and its tourturing him. Karma is a gift and a curse, you cannot have one without the other. Yes he left and i might be a little sad but he taught me love. The good and the bad.